YOU have turned my life UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE OUT. :)

Voila~!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

i want to walk down the beach with you in the evenings, stopping occassionally to gaze at the constellations.
i want to snuggle up in your arms on the couch in front of the tv, but not really watching.
i want to open the doors and see you greet me with that big grin of yours, trying to hide that bouquet of tulips behind you.
i want to raid your kitchen and whip up a gorgeous meal, just for the two of us.
i want to hold your hand in church, lifting them up to the Lord as He watches us serve His people.
i want to be there for you when all your manliness fades away, to see you cry and assure you of my love.
i want to wake up each morning and know that you're the one i want to be with for the rest of my life.
i want you to be there when my fortress disintegrates, comforting me that things will be okay with you around.
i want to slip in post its in your books, telling you i love you.
i want to put together a jigsaw puzzle for you, leaving you to fit in the last piece, which would make everything perfect.
i want to bring you a cup of hot tea when your nose goes all woozy, and tuck you safely in bed.
i want to hear you sing by my bedside when i'm not feeling well too.
i want to see you do all the silly things some guys do, like dropping off my favourite candies just before i start my day.
i want us to sit back to back, alone in some quiet place, and talk about anything and everything till the dawn breaks.

haha..pardon the hopeless romantic won't ya? the list could go on and on and on......don't know what made me write all this!! haha...oh wells. guess i was bored. no, i'm not referring to anyone in particular here...just in case you're wondering. =D

anyone ever wondered, what our existence means? what we're here to do? what would become of us after death? cliched questions no less, but seriously, ever wondered?

i don't understand how some people can continue in their existence without these questions in mind. i'm not trying to persecute them or anything, don't get offended. haha. so many people go about in their daily lives, doing the things they do best, but not really understanding why. how can anyone think that there isn't something else out there? we don't have emotions for no reason you know. yeah, scientists can come up with all the cynical (sorry, SCIENTIFIC i mean) reasons why, but i think that's all crap. we have souls. where do we go when we finally go? ever thought about that?

everything we hold dear in this lifetime are but material. hard as it may to discard them, i would want to give it a shot. we go everywhere in search of love, not knowing that the greatest love of all is right there, staring at us. we search for the truth, unknowingly shoving aside that ONE PERSON who IS the truth. we look for our purpose in life, deaf to the commands that have been laid down in front of us.

"I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?" John 11:25-26

yes, i believe, with all my heart, with all my soul and with all my spirit. this is what i live for. i live to love Him, to obey His commands, to carry out His work. some become Christians for the benefits of it, but let me tell you this: christianity is not all about benefits. we never promised happiness. we promised holiness, which would bring you happiness. it is not a bed of roses, we will have to bear the persecution in time to come. we have to continue His work despite the pain ahead. only then, can we join the Father in His kingdom.

"I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me." John 14:6

and why do i dedicate my life to Him? i have forsaken Him millions of times. i slammed the door in His face when He died for me. yet He waited patiently outside for me, hoping i'll come back to Him. i was a sinner. no one is perfect, but that does not justify our sins. we are all sinners. i can't describe how sinful i feel at almost all the services i attend during church, knowing full well all the things i've ever done. the uncleanliness couldn't seem to go away. but you know what? someone died for my sins. someone died for me, for all of us. that someone is Jesus. i'm dedicating my life to the one person who loved me so much, He was crucified for my sake. i'm living for the Father who watched His Son die on the cross so that we could come closer to Him. imagine, the silence in heaven as He and the angels watched Jesus die, not being able to do anything as it was part of the Father's plans, to draw us closer to Him. isn't that amazing? and now for the most famous verse in the bible.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16

some wonder, if God loved the world so much, why is there so much suffering? contrary to popular belief, God is not the God of this world. lucifer (satan) is. (i can't find the verse for this...oops. i know its somewhere around). in the heavenly war before there was light, lucifer rebelled against God, and 1/3 of the angels fell with him. he became the prince of this earth, where sin is rampant. God has come not for the earth, but for our hearts. we need to tear ourselves away from worldliness, and concentrate on holiness to be with the Father. God did not curse us with suffering, but promised us eternal life.

to dead christians. you claim to believe in Him and His word, but do you do His work for Him? why indulge in worldly desires when there's a greater purpose for you to serve? you know how much He loves you, and the power of the Holy Spirit, but yet you cast all these aside for something so superficial and material. seek Him once more, and work for our Creator, the only thing we should love and hold on to for dear life.

i learnt all this in the past three days of vacation bible school. haha, ain't so knowledgeable you know. i'm so enlightened and compelled to share this message, so that more may join His kingdom. it is up to you to believe. i believe, and i'm going all out for Him.

"How will you run?"

loved by Jesus!

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