YOU have turned my life UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE OUT. :)

Voila~!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

so it's come to the end of the year again...and reading everyone's blog talking about reflections...let me do mine too.

i'm a lucky girl this year. i got closer to God (not close enough but i'm trying), met the best people in the world and managed to promote (that's not luck, its a pure miracle). now its time to make special mention of the people who changed my life and contributed to making the liane you see today.

the councillors.
kha: thanks for being the pres. thanks for offering a shoulder to cry on though i never really explained why i cried so much. tfor wetting my shoulders in return. thanks for loving God. for being brave enough to rise up admist possible persecution and standing strong to your belief in Him.

fei: thanks for that horribly tear-jerking msg on your blog (you cow). for loving Him despite all that happened to you this year. for your auntie-ness. for being so loud, stampeding in mac's and deafening all those within a 100 m radius of you. for crying to me.

kumar: for being the lamest person alive. the only who can crack me up with less than 5 words. for being b!g. for working with me for blazers and bash and everything else. for telling me everything you did. for putting a smile on my face just when i thought my smile was lost.

wanling: thanks for being my boss. for being small. for doing all the shit work and never complaining. for being so great at doing admin/log work.

sushi: thanks for all the suntans, bikinis and trips down to far east (the bikini adventure). for asking the funniest questions. for cracking me up. and looking for all those damn sponsers.

fifi: thanks for being a cockroach/council pet. for all the lame-ness in you. all our shopping trips. getting stuck in all the surf shops. for rolling around the floor like its damn clean. making a fool outta ourselves in ralph lauren. doing dance together.

jay: thanks for being curly. need i say more?

nat: thanks for being a true bitch when you needed to. for being one of the admin/log queens. for putting up with us always throwing the log to you. for looking for sponsers for prom.

mar: thanks for our shopping chemistry. for all the endless girl-talk. for being my sexy babe.

kur: thanks for being a bimbo. for being the sargas oha with me. for all the bimbo talk. for letting me diss you like crazy.

sufi: thanks for going to the acjc invest. for all your lame/porno crap. all your baggy can-stuff-a-whole-damn-farm-in-your-pants clothes.

stuck: thanks for doing all the shit work for orientation. for being damn lame. for giving me advice when i needed some.

halim: thanks for being the admin/log king. for all the times you let us poke fun at you. for all your rah-rah talks and eye-popping (pun intended) ltc games. for being damn cute.

04a202
liz: thanks for all our lecture-ponning adventures. for all the study times. for the shopping. all the laughter in class. spider bashing.

sam: thanks for being short (so i can bully you). for being the other spitfire of the class. for being class rep. for being short (did i mention that already?)

ruffles: thanks for being the next in lineage (socrates -> plato -> aristotle -> ruffles). for being sucha great writer/guitarist/philosopher/friend. for being my bro.

wy: thanks for the changi airport days. for snowy (did i just say that....). for pw. for girl talk.

heart of God church members
peck: thanks for being the other person who can really crack me up. for being the og fan. for being the (poser) rocker. for being so fantastic with the bass. for sharing all your chiobus with me. for being really (really) lame. for listening to my crap. for being part of the integration machines. for loving Him. for being you.

joyce: thanks for being our red team leader. for being around at 4 am in the morning on msn. for having such faith. for trying to wake me up. for praying for me in the middle of the night. for sharing and crying on me. for loving him.

maril: thanks for accepting Him. for being the first person i led to Christ. for being there for me to crap. for being the sargas oha. for having such strength despite all that happened. for standing tall in the midst of uncertainty.

isabel: thanks for being a paedophile. for thinking my brother is cute when i needed someone to adopt him. for the embarrassing ralph lauren adventure. for sharing what happened. for seeking Him in times of distress.

christine: thanks for laughing at/with me. for screaming at the top of your lungs. for being so crazy yet innocent. for loving Him.

dawn: thanks for loving Him. for being part of the jc team. for all the crazy times.

fifi: thanks for making me jealous for having sucha a huge tigger. for letting me stay over at your place the other time. for being part of the integration machines. for leading so many people to Christ. for being a great keyboardist.

jia xin: thanks for being so loud. for having such a high pitched voice. for beng muah chee. for being part of the integration machines. for always crying and reminding me that i should too. for being so responsible. for all your late night pesterings of integration cases. for always loving Him.

boris: thanks for being our shuai-ge. for being damn damn damn lame. for your shanghainese version of eeney meeney miney moe. for trying to be a kid so you can talk to my brother. for being so spiritual.

yong: thanks for being so wise. for taking history too so i can always ask you what to do. for buying me chocs. for being the keyboard machine.

alvyn: for ralph lauren. need i continue?

dom dom: thanks for being my cg leader. for finding out that we were kindergarten sweehearts (brrr..). for being the dua tao. for having a spirituality twice your appetite.

esmonde: thanks for really adopting my brother. for being so great with kids. for buying me breakfast.

my confidants.
julie: thanks for knowing me for 10 years. for sitting beside me for 7 years. for putting up with me for what seems to be lifetime. for letting me know you're always gonna be there, whether i like it or not. for being so damn sarcastic. for being you.

marli: thanks for all the stupid arguments. for being a bitch. for letting out the true bitch in me. for cracking me up in all our (bitchy) convos. for being so anorexic i can tease you non-stop. for all our crap.

ks: for being my shepherd. for working like me. for being the man. for all your spiritual advice. for being one of the greatest drummers in church. for teaching me how to love Him. for bringing me back to Him. for being my leader. for taking on my other brother. for doing all those stupid things so people will be led to Christ. for loving Him.

jia yan: thanks for being my lesbo partner. for being my first kcian best fren (tho its against the rules). for all the craziness. for being my fridge. for coming over to my house when i was crying. for letting me run to you and you to me. for being one of the bestest best frens i made this year. for beoing hot babes together. for all our stayovers and pigouts. for talking shit. for being you.

ms yong: thanks for being my TA. for all the hugs i gave you (reluctantly accepted or otherwise). for trying to do a taekwondo on me and finding out that i'm really heavy and strong too. for treating us to lunch. for chauffering us around. for being such a sweet fella. for being so human, baring your emotions when other teachers won't. for sticking up for the council. for giving me a second chance. for sticking up for me. for believing in us. for wanting nothing but the best for us. for being the best TA i ever had.

ms ee: thanks for letting me run to you everytime something happens. for being the first person i'll run to cuz i know you'd always be there. for listening to all my crap and giving me great advice all the same. for always making me feel better. for being my hot babe. for letting me hug you too. for answering all my emails. for waiting to catch me everytime i fall. for putting up with my crap. for teaching me anything you could; beyond econs (which i flunked all the same). for sticking up for me. for teaching me about subordination. for knowing that i'll tell you everything, the only question was what time of the day. for taking me to church on a saturday for that fantastic sermon when i needed God. for waiting during lecture after i talked to him. for being in school when i needed you. for being a loyal servant of God. for always leading me back to him. for being you.

you: oh man...i don't know how to start. okay. thanks for being my best fren. my soulmate. for understanding me like no one else could. for being able to read me like a book. for putting up with my crap. for all the tears and heartaches. for all our late night talks. for all the arguments, intellectual or emotional. for all the concerts, choir, band and band again. for supper at 85. for harry potter. for leading me back to Christ. for letting me bash your ego every 7 seconds. for attempting to mug together. for pool. for cracking me up. for making me cry. for tigger. for loving God with all your heart, soul and mind. for comforting me everytime i'm down. for being the sweetest guy i ever knew. for being the first guy i ever loved.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
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knowing that i have greater things in life to achieve, a sea of better people to meet and a lifetime of maturity to attain doesn't make it any less painful. i can tell you i'm fine and i'm over it but i'm not God and yes, i do hurt easily. so despite everything..i'm still crying and i wonder why.

anytime u need a crack, i'll be your nut.
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Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I walk aloneI walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
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what an eventful year this has been. i've found my way back to Christ, joined the most fantastic bunch of councillors i've ever worked with, met the greatest people in mjc, a202, council and cp and the craziest bunch of on-fire Christians in heart of God.

i'm a lucky girl, aren't i?

will a tsunami please hit me now.

loved by Jesus!

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