YOU have turned my life UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE OUT. :)

Voila~!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

woah. great to be back here.

aftermath
been really messed up the past week, trying to juggle all my stuff. but now that i've found the true purpose of my work, reaching full understanding, i'm ready to conquer the world! so to all those who witnessed me break an umbrella to bits, i'm fine, really. just be glad it wasn't you.

to ms ee and ms yong
ms ee, you amaze me. love my psychiatrist. ms yong, world's bestest teacher; don't let stuff get to ya. ;) love ya babes.

peck
poor lao pok. ya had to go thru so many of my ranting sessions too. i hope i didn't speed up yr ageing. thanks for everything. rock on.

i'm glad that episode's over.

but

*SCREAMS*
aaah!!!!
certain tutors find pleasure in being an anal rat. like every rat, they nibble and chew on nerves, grinding them till a reflex action takes place. yes, my kinda rats chew on nerves, deal with it. the only reason for tolerance is the fact that you're good. but here's something for you.

leave.
me.
alone.

i don't associate myself with those unworthy of my attention.

that's you by the way.

loved by Jesus!

whatever.

cut me some slack.

i need to talk to someone sensible.

pray i don't fall asleep during ms k's class later at 2.

loved by Jesus!

jus watched pretty woman..for the second time? but hey...its still as romantic as ever. *swoons*

ya know, these movies usually leave me wondering abt stuff, thinking to much, wallowing in self pity. but guess what? i'm over it, i'm over him and i'm head over heels in love with God. woohoo! and i have a whole list of 3 worded phrases for any asshole who tries to mess me up.

1. go and die
2. go eat shit
3. in your face
4. what a maroon
5. kiss my ass
6. all bastards die
7. wait long long
8. find someone else
9. wrong tree mate
10. waste of time

take your pick.

wahahahha!! i conquer the world!!

JC revival!!!!!

jus had a great revelation from God during bible study...it was so powerful...wow. amazing. suddenly, all the pieces seem to fit..wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who's stopping me?

loved by Jesus!

yowsers. i'm back!!

k, i know i haven't been updating......been busy alright. will do so now.

so many things have happened this week...

everything in council is (more or less) back to normal...praise God!! i'm constantly reminded why i love this council so much. wow. 2nd Orientation will be a blast!! woooohoo!! watch out u freshies.....

been trying to catch up with school work and all....which ain't exactly working. madam was astounded at how much i don't know..heh. let me show you.

madam: 'do you know what's GDP and GNP?'
me: *sheepishly* 'heh. no.'
madam: *look of despair* 'oh my goodness. how about per capita?'
me: *confused look* 'huh?'
madam: 'oh no..'

heh. ooops. oh no. i'm screwed aren't i. could tell madam wanted to cry while giving me consultation...and she's patient. heh. i rem ms ee getting violent........

anyways.

oh yea. big happenings this week? for hist test last tues, i jus wrote my name, class and question and pretended to sleep. then, before handing in the paper, i wrote, 'sorry mr pang.' did exactly the same thing for the next part of the test during tut, but this time, he jus asked me to go to the back to study. then on thurs.....

on the bus
pang: *smirking* 'eh. retest on monday hor.*
me: *confused look* 'huh? retest?'
pang: 'you don't think you can get away with the test.'
me: 'so you mean i don't get zero?'
pang: *still smirking* 'minus five marks.'
me: 'ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you mr pang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' *repeats it for the rest of the day*

oh man. that guy's such an angel. how not to love him?

man. i'm gonna be super busy this month. and the next. till i step down.
council: 2nd i/c for orientation, advisor (heh heh) for relive the 90s
church: sound, lights and tuition ministry
school: catching up on silas marner, 1984, german, italian unifications and new imperialism, all of j1's work for econs, including national income accounting and some consumer savings shit.

bah.

and people wonder why i have no time to do homework. i can't even squeeze out time to breathe..

but God's amazing. i mean, retest for hist??? wow. i was so super stressed out, when today, while doing my quiet time, i asked Him for a verse. He said, 'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'

i badly wanted to join SOW (school of worship). i really really wanted to join the acoustic guitar. but with 3 ministries at hand and being i/c of orientation.....it'll be suicide. that's why i've been so stressed recently. it isn't humanly possible to cope with all these and still pass my tests. then i was thinking and thinking yesterday during bible study and the day before after cg. It isn't humanly possible, its spiritually possible. i finally knew what He wanted me to do. He wants me to tap on His strength.

wow.

that's amazing.

I love You, Lord. i'll do anything You want me to do.

loved by Jesus!

we failed.

that's all i can say.

we failed horribly, miserably, pathetically.

yeah, stuck is right.

stop it with the 'you did a great job' tone.

we failed.

loved by Jesus!

honestly, i wanna blog something real great here abt orientation, but i don't think i can.

k, lets try.

sargas: u guys rock man. tea light candles, diana ross song, cake n all...oh man. moved me to tears. despite everything, u guys still had e spirit, e spirit of sargas. i've run out of words to say.

lets thank the people who worked their asses off for this orientation. people like stuck, kumar, jia yan, fifi, wanling, halim. i've never seen them more stressed in their lives. kumar, u don't suck. stuck, u did a great job. jia yan, fantastic emceeing with ya. fifi, excellent job with the dance. wanling, i think u've grown to be a great leader. halim, yr a great first ic.

ks, i'm sorry.

ms yong...i love ya.

but u know what. i'm damn disappointed. things which i could've done...people i should've stuck up for...tempers which could've been controlled...people who should've been working.

just one question.

guys, where were you when we needed u?

loved by Jesus!

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