YOU have turned my life UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE OUT. :)

Voila~!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

today was the first time i seriously wanted to walk away.
mr yeow was talking to kumar and i, everyone standing around trying on blazers. i looked at them, looked at mr yeow and kumar and said,
'i don't care anymore, i'm walking out.'
and i did.
i meant every step i took.
'liane, come back.'
i stopped.
turned around.
and walked back.
why did i walk back?

i really didn't care.
when mr yeow spoke to us, i knew he wanted to blow at me cuz i was hardly paying attention; according to my body language.
well.
i said i didn't care right.
spoke to him after that.
said i'd be okay.

'i thought you still cared, and i banked on it.'
'liane, don't give up on me now.'
'my impression of you guys as a family has slowly eroded.'
'i think you're better off riding that vespa.'
'if anyone falls in love with you driving that car, man, its gotta be true love.'

ya know what i really wanna do?
i wanna spend some time with my classmates.
i wanna talk to my best friends.
dan marli julie jiayan etc etc.
i wanna talk to my darlings.
i wanna spend some time with sargas.
hell, i wanna TALK to sargas.
i wanna see my ex-classmates, who probably think i don't care about them anymore.
wait.
i know they think i don't care about them anymore.
3 friends have flown off, and i haven't sent one off.
i wanna do my tutorials.
yeah you heard right.
doing tutorials is a luxury.
i wanna go back to cp.
i wanna go shopping damnit.
i wanna watch a movie.
i wanna watch three movies.
howl's moving castle, moments to remember and shall we dance.
i wanna learn to play the guitar.

can i?
can i please?

i don't wanna bitch here.
about why i'm pissed.
don't ask me why.

went off to spend some time with my churchmates.
that really saved my day.
you guys rock man.
'are we there yet?'
'are we there yet?'
'are we there yet?'
'are we there yet?'
'are we there yet?'

and to top it all off......

'can we go home?'

God, You're the only one i can hold on to now.
You don't have to tell me You're worth it, i know.
now i've got to tell the rest.
tired as i am, jaded as i am, hurt as i am,
everytime i go back into Your presence, it feels so warm and loving.
i have to lean on Your strength.
let me GLOW.

loved by Jesus!

Designer: x
Image: x
Brushes: x o
Pattern: x