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And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

there's a price to pay for being a councillor.

you take that form, run for council and get elected. you get expectations thrown at you, flying from all directions. you're supposed to do well in your studies, behave properly and be a dedicated councillor serving the school. if you can't live up to those expectations, you pay the price.

i never understood the rationale behind councillors having to do relatively well in examinations. its not for the school, its not for the council, but really, its for yourself. its for your sorry behind. just look at how much councillors have to do. we were supposed to stand down during the march holidays for our revisions. TAs emphasised that. ironically, i was still being chased for the orientation schedule during that week. before that, we were skipping lessons like nobody's business so we could finish up proposals and make sure everything's ready for the ogl camp. for orientation. i heard someone say, do you seriously think we can finish everything without skipping lessons? actually, yes, that's what we're expected to do.

some of us can't do it. in fact, i don't think anyone really can at this moment. we are unable to juggle both and thus put in more effort in council. you see, if we screw up our exams, we only have ourselves to face. if we screw up orientation, we have 900+ students to face. the choice is obvious.

some of us can't do it. its been proven. and we paid the price.

i'm not trying to sound like a matyr here. i hope i don't.
simply trying to state the harsh reality.

we can't sit here and feel sorry for ourselves. we made the choice, we pay the price. simple.
its also the price the school has to pay for choosing to keep the council small.

i sit here and think of the consequences of not appearing for block tests.
they'll screw me, i know.
some may be hypocritical.
others may make perfect sense.
i deserve to get scolded.
but at the same time, i don't.
either way, i'm just gonna look you in the eye

and listen.

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