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And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

It's the third time I'm updating today, but heck.
I need to let something outta my system other than forex.

It's a sexed-up world and I hate it.
I hate it I hate it I hate it.
Look at our language.
What has it degenerated to?
Everything has sexual connotations to it; what has happened to our beautiful language?
And you know what's the worst part?
We don't even know it; either that, or we don't care.
Even my language used to be dotted with vulgarities.
But now when I hear it, my whole spirit rumbles in protest.
It disgusts me.
I surf blogs, people sign off with words suggesting disgusting images, relish in the images of sluts, pimps, whores, orgasms and what not.
Go ahead, spruce up your sex appeal, that's what's important yeah?
See how 'sexy' you remain at 80.
If syphillis doesn't get you first.
Even television programmes encourage pre-marital sex; what, it's okay as long as you're of a legal age? Naturally, the population comes first.
Yeah, I seriously hope you do take the future death tolls caused by STDs and abortion rates into account; or do they add to a much needed population boom?

In case you're wondering why I'm so mad, it's because of a twin catalyst effect of 'adult friend finder' pop ups and disgusting images from blogs belonging to Christians.
Yes.
Christians especially.
"Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary edification, that i tmay impart grace to the hearers. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption." Ephesians 4:29-30
I can't find the one which talks of how corruption and impurity of the spirit will drive you out of the house of God.

Please.
He died on the cross for us.
The least we could do is not embarrass Him.
Don't stumble others, please.

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I found her! :)

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Two days ago, I actually wrote a really long entry about freedom.
But I fell asleep on my comp and it never got uploaded.
Ohwells.

I feel a need to clear my mind of some of the noise it's been polluted with recently.
Forward march.

A bed full of roses to break your fall,
Tells a story of mine, though not as tall
As one often told by men who tease
Yet, on to the story, if you would please.

This was originally written for someone special.
Interesting that she, of all people, brought back my long-lost muse.
But I can't finish the poem.
I guess things have happened, too numerous to track, too tiring to recount.
I'm letting go of it now, maybe you'd like to finish it off for me.

I remember the balloons, the date is drawing near.

School started yesterday, I've never felt more depressed and despondent (actually I have, this is just to add to the effect) about my results. It didn't look good, after all the hard work I put in. Usually I'd head home for a nice long nap to forget all these, but I wanted to find strength in my Lord. And it was amazing.

I recall the last time He led me to Hebrews, the chapter titled "The just shall live by faith". Yesterday, He led me to that very same chapter. It was amazing, and filled me with tremendous faith once again. For without faith it is impossible to please God. God is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. If I can't even hang on these promises, I assure you, there's nothing else I could hang on to. I started playing the song titled "Free" on my comp and looked like a fool dancing around my room (don't let your imagination run wild). I was liberated in Christ! It was awesome, absolutely amazing.

Lord,
Many things seem impossible now,
For time has caught up with me.
I'm surrounded by disbelief and despondency,
Hopelessness and dejection.
But in You I draw strength,
To you I bring faith
And I know that the glory of the Risen Lord will fall on me.
Rejoice!
For in You nothing is impossible.
The chains of disbelief shall be broken,
The weight of desondency and hopelessness lifted;
And the pain of dejection soothed.
The confidence in myself has been slayed,
Now the only confidence left is Yours alone.
Father, be with me now,
And see me through this time of trial.
Remember me, O Lord,
Your humble servant.
Amen.

In faith, I see three As. :)

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Obey those who rule over you, and be submissive, for they watch out for your souls, as those who must give account. Let them do so with joy and not with grief, for that would be unprofitable to you.
- Heb:13:17 -

I feel really blessed that I have such great leaders above me.

Pastors.
Dominic.
KS.
Esmonde.

Receive a prophet and you will receive the prophet's rewards.

Sometimes I watch my leaders, and scrutinise the way they lead their lives. Some things they do may appear trivial, mundane or routine, but each action is, in reality, embedded with deep meaning behind it. Every act, an act of worship for God. Wow. I want to adopt this kind of lifestyle, where each and every action of mine justifies my being called a child of God. Every act, an act of worship.

I need to love people more. I WANT to love people more. I know my heart is hardened, I'm afraid to open it up and allow it to be left vulnerable. But we are called to love, for if Jesus could love even those who crucified Him, we are left with no excuse not to love others. I want to love people like how Esmonde loves people, like how he makes time to go out for dinner with his sheep, even during the exams. I want to love people like KS, who'd be the first to shove a Robitussin down your throat if you have a sore throat. I want to love people like Dominic, who makes himself a part of his sheeps' lives despite his busy schedule. I want to love people like Pastors, who obeyed the word of God immediately and set up this church.

Love.

Soften this hardened heart, O Lord.

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I'm filing a missing persons report.

Any one who knows the whereabouts of Teresa Ng, please call me!

It's 3 plus in the morning, I have two papers later, but I really really need to find Teresa cuz I remember all our crazy times and I totally miss her loads. I love Teresa!! Now come out!!

Okay.

She will appear.

Teresa where are you?????!!!

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Yes, I do recall my promise to post a crtique of sorts of 'The Last Samurai'.

What a beautiful piece. Perhaps it's a blessing that KS is my leader (okay, maybe not perhaps); I wouldn't have picked up this movie otherwise. I never did understand the meaning or notion of war, not till after watching this movie. Watching how the samurais fought with such single-mindedness and devotion is simply amazing. You want to talk about honour? Watch the samurais.

If men are willing to die for other men, what more I for my God?

Went over to Joyce's place yesterday to care for the poor girl who sprained her ankle (though my efforts were tragically mistaken to have other intentions), and ended up watching another movie. Dead Poets' Society.

*deadly still silence*

Yes, I am in fact, taking Physics, Chemistry, Maths and F Maths. The whole History, Literature and Econs combination was but a mere facade.

I have no life, get over it.

Aside, Carp pe diem!!

I hate social orders. I hate the almighty system. It strangles individuality, it kills life and smothers passion with a goose-feathered pillow. Oh yes, but we must follow the orders, for it is there for a reason! I even vaguely remember being told off, 'You have no respect for the system!'

The system, is not alive. Come on! Get over it.

Sorry, I just had to let that out.

Sometimes, I wonder if I do certain things to serve self-interests. I believe so, it seems a recurring habit in me when certain unfortunate things happen. It's time to get the 'ol whip a-kicking.

What a disgustingly, uncomprehendable post. I like.

Doth eyes fettered by night's untruths;
Let not man be called a fool.
(I have no idea where that came from)

Adieu.

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My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw the Christ.
Of that I'm sure.
He smiled at me on the subway.
He was with 12 other men.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

(chorus)
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw Your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause Your love for me is true.

Yeah, He caught my eye,
As I walked on by.
He could see from my face that I was,
flying high,
And I know for sure, I'll see Him again,
And He gave me a love that will last till the end.

(chorus)
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful it's true
I saw Your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
You're beautiful,
You're beautiful.
And it's time to hear the truth
I will always be with You.

(La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, Laaah)
There must be a Christ,
with a smile on His face,
when He thought that I should be with Him

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be a Christ with a smile on His face,
When He thought up that I should be with Him.
And it's time to hear the truth,
I will always be with You.

Beautiful song, ain't it?
;)

Just watched 'The Last Saumurai.'
Fantastic movie.
Will blog about it later.

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