Voila~!
And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12
I will take it by force.
We just had a fantastic weekend, Heart to Heart with Pastors!
Talk about tear-jerking.
Just left me at the edge of my seat, absolutely awestruck.
Man, words can't describe it.
I'm gonna be a mighty man woman of God.
And my eyes are set on that sea of blue called MJC.
Woohoo~!
Seriously, how can anyone ever backslide from this church?
Never will you find Pastors like these anywhere else.
Never.
Pastors who are willing to lay down their lives for the kingdom of God.
Play Daytona with little boys.
Give up successful careers and bonuses for the ministry.
Love each and every single youth for who he or she is, regardless of what they've ever done in their lives.
The list just goes on and on and on.
Unconditional love.
The love of God.
The Heart of God.
You know, every where I go, every organisation I joined all believed that I'd be someone really successful.
They all said I had a great future ahead of me.
They all knew I was capable of achieving great things.
Yes, they had the faith.
But none of them had the patience to stick it out with me.
Not that I can expect them to.
But my Pastors did.
My leaders did.
Up till now, I have absolutely no idea why they did.
But because of that, I'm now able to do the same for others.
It's because of them, that I can be who I am today, and who I'll be in the future.
I owe my life to them.
I'm sold man.
I'm sold to my Pastors, to this church, and most of all, to God.
Give me a cause to die for, and I'll do it.
I found my cause.
Have you?
Relationships are such funny things, aren't they?
That's because people are such funny creatures.
Relationships are complicating, because we complicate them.
Some people wonder why I'm so against getting into a relationship now.
These same people also wonder why church discourages relationships so much.
That's cuz I don't want to settle for second best.
Last night over msn, I was sharing with Fifi about some things, about a certain guy I used to like and things which happened along the way.
Nothing short of traumatising, I felt like I was reliving the entire episode.
Truthfully, it's a nice feeling to have knowing that you've got someone to lean on, someone to depend on, someone to shower you with lots of hugs and kisses all day.
You get that warm fuzzy feeling every time you're with that special someone, that person you're sure you want to spend your entire life with.
I mean, hey, even staring at that person for 3 seconds is fun.
I'm making assumptions here, I've never had those feelings before.
Really.
;)
So what's the big deal?
The problem with us humans is that we get emotionally attached and dependent on THE ONE.
Who may not be THE ONE after all.
I mean, honestly, how many THE ONES have you met?
How many relationships have most of us ventured into?
Once again, I add the disclaimer that I've absolutely no idea about any of this because I've no experience.
Did any one of them last?
Face it.
People aren't perfect.
We meet jerks all the time.
Jerks we keep mistaking for THE ONE.
Jerks who use and manipulate us all the time.
Maybe you're the jerk, I don't know.
But people hurt us.
So in the end, what we get out of the relationships are nothing but hurt, emotional distress, anger, resentment, confusion..the list goes on.
And may I add that all these lead to premature wrinkles, and in the case of some, unnecessary scars as a result of self mutilation?
So stupid.
I choose to rest on God.
God is perfect.
He knows exactly what I need, and at what time.
He gives me all the hugs and kisses and tender loving care any time, all the time.
10 seconds in His presence beats a lifetime in the arms of THE ONE.
Just give me 10 seconds, anytime.
As Pastor Sy Rogers says,
We all have appetites, it's simply a matter of feeding them with poison, or feeding them with nourishing food.
I'm not saying that relationships are wrong, horrible and downright sinful.
I'm not saying we should all be monks and nuns.
Relationships are beautiful, at the right time.
God's not someone Who wants to deprive us of all things good.
The bible tells us that His thoughts towards us are of good, not evil, to give us a future and a hope.
That every good gift is from Him.
It's just that us, being human, can't wait, and can't tell the difference between what's good and what's great.
Don't settle for second best.
And more than that, don't hurt Him by saying that He's depriving you of these things, and getting together with someone you know does not believe in Him and rejects Him.
He has feelings too.
That's how He loves you.
That's how much He loves you.
And yes, I know EXACTLY how you feel.
Out of the heart springs the issues of life, indeed.
I'm amazed at the things I found in my heart. Things I thought I'd never find, I found. Things I thought myself incapable of, I did.
God, once again I dedicate and commit my heart back to You. Let nothing else come in the way, for all I want is You, and more of You.
Gosh, I felt swarmed.
Why do people always attack newcomers?!
Lucky I look scary..HAHA!
I was already planning on skipping the entire matriculation, but received a call from Daniel Goh saying I still have to make my way down.
I felt my world come crashing down.
Thank God for good friends though.
Heh.
Had to fill in 30000001 different forms, sign up for courses, listen to the seniors promote their booths...gosh. I hardly remembered anything or anyone.
Oh, but I remember one of the Acer salesmen.
He's 1.98m.
A bit hard to forget.
The worst part of today was attending one of the compulsory volunteerism talks.
Mine was on Waterworks or some thing like that.
I was absolutely bored.
The worst thing was that the room had no reception for Starhub holders, and everyone else's phones were ringing with the exception of mine.
I was annoyed.
Actually, the talk was rather amusing.
Listening to people sell their lives to an organisation which aims to protect water.
I was thanking God I've found a greater cause to die for.
Hey, I'm not saying anything against these noble people who protect our water.
But do you seriously wanna die knowing the noblest thing you've ever done in your life was to keep our water clean?
Seriously.
I wanna die knowing I've changed lives, transformed people, impacted nations and societies.
I wanna die knowing that God was able to use me mightily; that I was a good vessel.
I wannd die knowing that I gave my life so that others could come to know Him.
I wanna die knowing that I made a difference.
A thousand times I failed, so Your mercy remains.
Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names.
Here goes.
1. I hate being stood up. It's my No. 1, ultimate hate; best way to trigger nuclear forces from within me. I get totally out of control when I'm stood up, be it a small thing or a big thing. In essence, I will go nuts. So now you know. ;)
2. When I'm depressed/stressed/upset, the first thing I think of doing is running home and sleeping under my bed. Literally, directly under my bed, squashed between the bed boards and the parquet flooring. Don't ask me why, I've no idea.
3. I can sleep anywhere, anytime. And I'm impossible to wake up. The only way to do it is to call my phone. Try me.
4. I used to hate Christians and going to church. The first time I went to church, I scared the living daylights out of everyone who tried to talk to me. Believe it or not, it was because I was shy. HAHA!
5. I used to believe all guys should wear make up. Once, I voiced this view in the midst of a couple of retrosexual-looking males, and boy you should've seen their faces. Priceless.
6. I used to hold on very strongly to the belief that girls who like younger guys are absolutely weird. Hmm.
I tag:
1. Gab
2. Fee Fee
3. Cheryl
4. Shu Yi
5. Joyce
What retardedness.
Okay, maybe it's a little late for me to bring it up in my blog now, but that incident has given me some interesting thoughts.
Zidane headbutted that Italian scoundrel for insulting his mother and his sister. Then he's had to face the world about how it wasn't appropriate, unbefitting of a French icon, and most of all, that it cost France the World Cup. I must say, Zidane's response was rather interesting. He apologised to his nation for it's consequence, but he refused to apologise for his action, citing that doing so would mean he regretted it.
Honestly, I really do admire him.
Yeah, maybe he shouldn't have headbutted the guy on the pitch, and instead, given him a good thrashing one on one in the boy's toilet, but seriously, he showed the world that he was willing to stand up for his loved ones regardless of cost. He wasn't about to let the guy push him around or insult his family.
Wow.
How many of us can actually do that?
I remember there was once I overheard a couple discussing Christianity while I was heading home. To begin with, their language was not exactly pleasant, and to top it off, they were making comments like Christianity was appealing to youths because of the music, blah blah blah, $%&*@ punctuating their sentences. I was absolutely incensed, but I kept my peace, because I was too scared to stand up for what I believed in.
Hah.
What a chicken.
Even Zidane did better than me.
When soldiers tried to capture Jesus, Peter stood up and cut off the ear of the very first guy who tried to touch Him. He was promptly told off by Jesus, who said that those who live by the sword will die by the sword.
But look at the heart behind it.
It was screaming out, "You touch my Lord, you die."
Wow.
No wonder Peter was the first person appointed as the head of the church.
So this is my stand.
I'll headbutt the first person who dares insult my God, my Pastors, my leaders, my church, and all those I love.
Matarezzis of the world, Beware.
She soothes that raging fire of change.
Sometimes, change isn't that bad.
Change has to come with time.
Sometimes, time's aplenty.
If not, time always seems to run out.
God grant us the wisdom to know when we should be patient, and when we need to make haste.
Most of us can't tell the difference between the two.
Even if we can, we wanna know now now now, we wanna satisfy now now now, we wanna have everything now now now.
If not, it's later, give me a minute, lazy, let's do it next week.
Time.
Amazing.
Rushes at the speed of light, yet crawls like a 400 year tortoise too.
The human heart always wants the best of both worlds.
How cute.
"Daddy look! Look at what I've given up! This, and this, and this and this and this! Now can I have that thing I've always wanted?? Now now?"
"It's better to obey than to sacrifice. Do the better of the two."
Indeed.
God intrigues me.
Gee, how true.
People change.
Things change.
Situations change.
The world changes, everyday.
Yet sometimes we live life like nothing's gonna change.
We don't schedule change in our planners, we don't expect change to pop out at us like a jack in a box.
But then again, it doesn't.
Change is really sly, it creeps out at you, bit by bit, only appearing when your eyes finally accept its presence.
And then we cry foul, raving that it was so unexpected, so sudden, so unbelievable.
Truth is, it never was.
Change is honest, it doesn't lie. It's our eyes and hearts who refuse to see it.
Remember that first crush you had?
Thought it'd last forever?
How many actually did?
Remember that friend of yours?
Thought he/she would never forsake you?
Still friends?
Remember that dream you had?
The one about being a pilot, astronaut, fireman, policeman, teacher?
Still wanna be that?
Change is constant.
Heed her warning. Follow her pattern.
I hate change sometimes.
Cuz when you finally see it, you just wanna kick yourself in the rear end.
I've had to bear with change too.
With myself.
With people around me.
Sometimes I thought I'd never be able to heal from the emotional hurt.
Thank God for Him.
He never changes.
Every word He spoke stands as still as a mountain.
Solid rock, Almighty God.
All too often, we forget about this thing called change.
It's tiresome to think about it, it's awful to bear with it's consequence.
But the next time you want to set your heart on something, remember this.
God is the only One change doesn't affect.
So set your heart on Him, He never falls away.
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
C5 just celebrated their dear CGL's birthday on Sunday, which happens to be 4 months late. It always happens. I was asked to write on one of their trillion cards stuck on his present, but I didn't write much. Was never good at birthday messages. In fact, when I msged KS his birthday msg last year, all it said was, 'Happy birthday KS. Thanks for saving my life', while bel's was about 3 msgs long, or so she said. But here goes, this is my msg for my bestest friend in the whole world!
Gab, thanks for being there everytime I needed someone to be there. Emo rides, starbucks, macs sundae before monday, dotA, uncle tangs..the works. It's been an awesome journey with you, and I know there's definitely way more to come! You're one of the people who knows me best, thanks for always assuring me that I can always count on you! You direct me to the right path, get me out of sticky situations, put up with my whining (now that's amazing, I thought only Esmonde was capable of that!) We've had the most hilarious and weirdiest conversations about the most retarded things on earth, but we've also shared some of the biggest dreams for God and His kingdom!
Honestly, I never thought you'd be one of the best friends I'd ever make, but you are! Really thank God for this amazing friendship, it's definitely worth a lifetime. Rock on bestie.
Happy 17th. You're getting old too.
I'm back with a brand new look, and internet connection! Woohoo!
Yes, I've actually survived more than 6 months without internet. *Applause*. Seriously, I've led life without money, internet, handphones, fridges, and currently, washing machines. Not having a fridge for more than a month was the worst; can you imagine not having cold water? Horrible experience.
France lost. Sigh. Every single country I supported fell out one by one. Spain. Germany. France. I think I need some serious counselling. Spain's gonna resurrect! World Cup 2010!
But hey, staying over in church was awesome! We watched the WC finals in the heart of the city, or at least we tried to, cuz most of us fell asleep before half time! Guilty as charged. Service was a blast! Everyone was dressed in jerseys, we had our faces painted, complete with noise generators of all sorts! Ain't no other church as rockin' as ours man! Pastor How was preaching about being REAL FANS, and it was amazing! Across the world you see die hard fans of soccer clubs, I'm a fan of Man Utd myself, but here, we're REAL FANS for JESUS CHRIST! Awesome!
I love my weekends! They totally perk me up for the week to come, they're like my sugar high! Being with the MJC gang is really awesome, they can be the crappiest people alive! And weekends never fail to bring forth a round of dotA or two..heh heh. Yes, I've only recently discovered the joys of this wonderful game, and I'm lovin' it! Played dotA with Dom, ongah, darren yeo till 3am on fri night! Funny how everytime I dotA till the wee hours in the morning, it's always with Dom..hmm.
I love my internet. I'm gonna start blogging real often from now on, so I'll see ya guys soon! :)
Here is my heart, make it Your sanctuary.
Ciao~!
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