YOU have turned my life UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE OUT. :)

Voila~!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

Life's like a ball.
It bounces.
The deeper the fall, the higher the jump.

I'd just like to say somethings to some people right now.

To the most important people in my world right now.
And some others who've ceased to be important.

To you,
Thank you. You were there for me when I was at my lowest, you stood by me, you believed in me. You were my tower of strength, you were the hand I clutched tightly on, you were the one I called and cried to and sent strange messages to in the middle of the night. I showered me with so much love that I could not have imagined how I could have come out of this alive without you. You rushed down to meet me for dinner when you already had a tight schedule. You sent me such a sweet message in the middle of my break that I couldn't stop smiling to myself in the library and people thought I was mad. You have no idea how much all that meant to me. Thanks Fifi.

To you,
Thanks for being there 24/7. I think we've come a long way as best friends, gone through almost the same things at the same time. Funny how our main tests came at the same time, and we overcame at the same time. You've been an awesome friend, worthy of being my bestie! :) Thanks bestie.

To you,
I can't imagine how life will be like when you leave for Canada. We've come a long way, you know most of what's been happening to me. You always seem to tell me exactly what I need at the exact point of time. What with the time difference in Canada and all..haha. Swim over, start now. And prepare me a room. I'll fly over when I can. I'll buy Canada when I'm PM. Thanks bel.

To you,
I have nothing left to say. But I thank you for the experience, it's hard times which make us grow. And you did a great job at making it a hard time.

I'm back.
And I'm ready to take on the world.

Bring it on.

loved by Jesus!

Why do I write?

I don't write for an audience, what you see here is not something that's meant for you (unless I say so, haha!), it's something that's meant for me.
Something that's part of me.
This is an extract of my everday thoughts and muses, penned down in a little box cuz I can't read my own handwriting.

Today's worship was awesome!
It was brimming with oil, the anointing of the Holy Spirit, and I could feel God right on top of me, and my fingertips were jus touching His.

Everyday we're faced with choices.
Is it gonna be sushi, or spaghetti?
Rice, or noodles?
Chicken, or pork or duck?
Chocolate ice-cream, or vanilla ice-cream?
Starbucks mocha frappe or caramel frappe?

And each day, the choices we have get narrower and narrower.
Making it seem as though there's really no difference.

Today, something interesting happened to me.
I was heading home (really early I may add) and I wanted to have a cheese sausage from Cavana at White Sands.
Then I wanted to eat portugese egg tart.
And then I remembered that there was crab, delicious, glorious crabs, waiting for me at home.
And I struggled.
I struggled and struggled and struggled to make a choice.
To quench and satisfy my immediate hunger?
Or to wait for the real stuff, to keep my appetite till then?

Funny.

Cuz those are the choices we make everyday.
Small, insignificant choices we believe will definitely not affect us in anyway.
But it really does say a lot about a person.

I used to be one who would satisfy my immediate hunger.
I want it now now now, and I only want that that that.

Today, I walked away from the cheese sausage and the portugese egg tart.

And I hope that tomorrow, two days later, next week, next month, I will walk away from something bigger.

It all begins with the small things.

Right relationships empower you.

loved by Jesus!

Talk to me.

Yup, come on, dial my number, I've got two.

Double click on JINX! DECO* B'LIVE 180 ((ZONE-D)) [Girls' Weekend!].

Why?

Cuz I've got something really exciting to share with you!
What?
What what what what what?
What's that all about?

I could tell you of the energy that's just surging through my mind, body, soul and spirit right now.
I could SCREAM out in CAPS on msn, over sms.
I just wanna SHOUT on top of the mountains, over the hills!
Shout down the valleys, the oceans, the clouds and the treetops!

What's the excitement all about?

You should ask, what the excitement NOT about, cuz I'll take a much shorter time sharing all that!

I could tell you of how my great God, that BIG man upstairs, has just redeemed the whole world through His Son, Jesus Christ, on the cross 2000 years ago!
I could tell you of how He's surpassed mercy, He's surpassed all human standards, and given us above and beyond what we deserve, giving us His mighty GRACE.
Grace that blesses us despite our shortcomings, despite His disappointment in us, despite the hurts we've caused Him.

I could tell you of how He told me just how much He loves me.
Just how much?
So much that He gave me a family who loves me, when I had none.
Love, that I craved for so much.
Spiritual brothers and sisters who look our for me, who care for me, who support me, who encourage me and who love me.
Spiritual parents who would lay down their very lives for our sakes.
Parents who've fought the fight, ran the race, and who continue running, fighting, preaching, ministering and loving.
Parents who are unafraid of the future, because they know that THE FUTURE'S GONNA BE AMAZING!

I could tell you of all the amazing people around me!
Of those who would lay up their CCAs, activities they love, friends they love, relationships they love, for a God they love even more.
Of sheep who can't stop sharing about how great their Pastors are, how great their families must be, how loving they are to each other.
Yvonne, that's you!
You're so awesome, you're so amazing, you totally excite me when I talk to you!
You're so hungry, so receptive, so willing to learn, so eager to run the race, to be at the front line, fighting and carrying the vision in your heart!
I can totally see your future in front of you, a future that's gonna be jammed packed with non-stop action!
God's gonna use you so mightily, you won't even believe what He's about to do!

I could shout on the mountain tops about my leaders, who would take time out to spend with me, despite a schedule tight enough to give you a free botox.
Leaders who would take that 1 hour out to spend with you, cuz they know that you really need their support at that point of time.
Of leaders who are unafraid to point out our weaknesses, nail them down and throw them out.
Leaders who do not find security in man's voice, but in God's.
Leaders who would fight alongside the Pastors, willing to give anything to support our spiritual parents, not only running with the vision, but carrying that very same vision in their hearts.
Convicted, determined, unafraid, fierce and strong.
Simply because they know that our God is so BIG, nothing can stop Him, and those He calls His children.

OH COME ON!
How can you miss out on such an exciting and amazing life?
CAN YOU FEEL YOUR SPIRIT MOVING?
CAN YOU FEEL THE MOUNTAINS TREMBLING?
Your spirit moves, the mountains tremble, the whole world is brimming with excitement, anticipation of the future!
THERE'S NO TIME TO WASTE!
Get up onto your feet,
AND HOP ON BOARD!

THE FUTURE'S GONNA BE AMAZING!

Now do you understand what I mean when I say you're totally missing out LIFE?

;)

loved by Jesus!

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