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And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12







I will take it by force.

I'm tired of covering it up.

ISABEL TAN, I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.

It's so strange not seeing you around in church.
There's like this vacuum, you can't see it, but you can definitely feel it sucking your whole being away.
I cried for DAYS before and after you left, and you of all people know how rare that is for me.

There's no one else for me to make fun of (other than Peck).
There's no one for me to call in the middle of the night and whine to.
No one around to ask me to 'Wake up your idea!'
Who's gonna be there to be my eyes?!
Who's gonna stand there and laugh when I make fun of Peck?

Who am I gonna share my problems to?
Who's gonna be my right relationship?

This is entirely cruel.
I feel robbed.

D4 is growing so well, Darryl and Cindy are so amazingly awesome..
I wish you could be here to see it.
I wish you could be here to witness the happenings in church, to be a part of something so amazingly exciting..so many exciting things happening!
I wish I could tell you about how awesome the MJC side is...and how SMU is just gonna explode.
I wish you were around for me to yell to when Pastors send me a message to make me smile, or when I get discipled and need to reflect to you to.

Argh..

So many things..

You're my first best friend!

Gosh, I didn't think I'd miss you this much, but I do.

Please come back soon.

You know, I never ceased to be amazed at how people change.

Perhaps when we were younger, we were more innocent.
Easily moulded.
More on-fire?
Filled with zeal, charged up and all ready to go.

So many have lost the fire.
So many have compromised, given up the fight, thrown in the white towel.

Perhaps it would have been better to leave us as children.

But you know what I've realised?
That the course of life is the biggest, toughest obstacle that we could ever face.
The one that could kill our innocence, extinguish our fire, and even turn us into cynical little brats.
The course of life, and it's ever-changing, colourful dish of temptations.
Did God really say that you could not have the fruit of this tree?
Did He really say that?
Hold on tight.
Hold on.
Cling on, don't kiss and say goodbye.
For what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.
And God doesn't ever test you with what is beyond your means.

That, is what truly determines who you will turn out to be in the future.

Don't fall away.
Don't give up.
Don't compromise.

Don't short change yourself on what you could possibly achieve.

The future is amazing. :)

God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried
into the midst of the sea,
Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling Selah

Wow.

I think this verse says it all.

:)

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God's presence is so addictive.
Over the past week, I've been in God's presence EVERY SINGLE DAY!
An amazing feat, if I do say so myself.
He is so amazing.
Go.
Go try it.
And don't stop till you get His presence.


Miracles are gonna happen.

Just you wait.

I still think of you.

In fact, day and night, I wonder to myself, if I could have done anything to make you stay?
But I realised, ulimately, the decision is entirely up to you.

You think this is going to be an emo post?
Well, no.
But the Holy Spirit has emotions too.
He can be grieved.
And my spirit is grieved.

I saw you today, and you looked different.
You don't carry the same smile, the same warmth, the same light-heartedness.
Now, your smile seems a little frigid, i sense coldness, and a heavy heart.

Our conversations aren't really the same anymore.
We used to be able to talk about such faith-filled things, about our lives in the future, about what we want to do for God, about how we're gonna reach out to our friends.
I felt like I couldn't even talk about these things with you anymore.

And all I could do was to pray, and pray, and pray and pray.
That I'll see you back in the race, grabbing that baton and running the marathon like we used to do together.
That the same smile, warmth, light-heartedness and faith would return.

Everyone has to go through this period of their lives, when they feel cold, dry, tired and disillusioned.
I went through that no long ago myself.
Perhaps you're going through something different, I don't know.
But one thing I do know.
Everytime I feel this way, I blast some praise songs, fill my spirit with faith, and read smses from my Pastors and leaders which can melt even the hardest, iciest hearts.

I'm always gonna be there for you.
We love you, Fifi, Dom, Pastors and I.
You're gonna make it, you've such a great future ahead of you.
If these are our thoughts, how much greater are God's towards you?

His hand is still reaching out to you.
Don't be afraid to take it.

Love you.

You know, there are times when everything seems to be going downhill for you.
Or worse, sometimes things just go up, and down, and up, and down and up and down and up and down.............
You get the idea.

You can't seem to do anything right.
You can't breakthrough in THAT ONE AREA YOU'VE BEEN TRYING TO BREAKTHROUGH IN SINCE GOD KNOWS WHEN.
You look around you, and find no one you can really share your problems with.
Maybe because it's considered the wee hours of the morning and the whole world is asleep.
And you seriously feel like giving up.
You are sick and tired of jinxing every single thing your fingers touch.

What do you do?

You look to God and remember the last time you encountered Him.
That awesome feeling filling your entire body, mind, soul and spirit.

You close your eyes and remember how your Pastors looked at you and said, 'We believe in you. You will make it.'

You remember this message, 'Hey liane, no matter what happens, just want to say that I LOVE U for who u are. Thank God for liane. :)'

And then you look up once again.

And you say, 'Hey, I get a problem every single day. It's 7 big problems a week, but just one day. I think I can handle that. No problem.'

If my Pastors and my leaders and MY BIG GOD have not given up on me, what gives me the right to give up on myself?

My God is a BIG God.
No problem is too BIG for Him.

You go Daddy.

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ANYWAYS.

Liane Ng is a self-professed techno bimbo.
How so?
She just found out (this year) that CTRL+C is copy, CTRL+V is paste.

My laptop has this strange habit of going on stand by mode after being unattended for more tahn 15 minutes, and every time it does this, I will have to shut down the whole laptop and restart everything.

Ya lah, I know you can go to settings and change some nonsense, but the problem is what nonsense.

Today, I encountered the same problem.
I was in the Art Gallery in church, worshipping, enjoying the presence of God, when I suddenly found that I could not switch songs as my laptop has gone on standby mode!

Then came GOD to the rescue!

He said, "Press F1."

Lights flickered on.

REVELATION.

Come on, let's all give God a big hand!

LIANE!

BE BIG MINDED.

bleah.

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