YOU have turned my life UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE OUT. :)

Voila~!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

I think I've changed quite a bit.

Things that used to be important to me are no longer, people who used to mean the world to me are no longer.
I've learnt to see things in a different light, I've learnt to take things in my stride.
I've learnt to turn the other cheek, I've learnt to let go.
I've learnt what's really important to me, and I've learnt that there are some things worth dying for, but not all things.
I've learnt to walk on, move on, look ahead.
I've learnt to study (haha!).

But the old me wasn't that bad.
I think I've lost some things, which I need to get back from the old me.
I think I've lost a reckless, radical drive I used to have.
The kind where I won't look anywhere else but run straight towards what I want.
I need to get that back.

I think I've sort of lost a little bit of that rebellious fighter who once ruled my life.
Now, I think I need that back.
Rebellious to anyone against God.
Fighting.
Fight fight fight.

I've lost a little of that passion for people.
The going in people's lives, changing and transforming them, one by one.
I want that back.

Routine and momentum.
Got you man.
Now it's time for acceleration.
:)

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I ACED MY CALCULUS.

72/100

Bouquets to.....
Pastors and Fifi!!
For forcing me to study.

Ian Koh
For teaching me (despite my sleepy spells).

Joyce Tan
For teaching me (although you weren't very sure yourself, haha).

And the Oscar goes to.......

Thank you God, all the glory goes to you. :)

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I still believe in you with all my heart.

I believe I see what others can't see.
There's something in you worth believing in.

I believe God sees too.
And I still pray for you.
Not everyday, I admit, but enough.

So stand strong.
We're with you. :)

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I hate having to second-guess people.

When I meet people and have a relationship with them, I want to know them inside out.
I want to be able to ask them upfront what they're thinking about, how they feel about things, ya know?
I guess I just don't like not knowing.
And it's so tiring to keep things from each other.

I never have to second-guess Bel, or Gab, or Esmonde or any of my closest friends.
I never have to second-guess Fee.
I definitely never have to second-guess Pastors.

You may not tell me how you feel all the time.
Well maybe cuz of what happened, you can't.
But trust me, I do know what you're thinking most of the time.
By virtue of second-guessing.
And I don't like it one bit.

I bet you second-guess me all the time.

Scary how we're always right.

Another thought.
If you have to second-guess the person you're gonna spend the rest of your life with,
it's going to be one miserable existence.
Especially friends.

Let's be upfront with each other alright?

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I love my leader.

Valerie (Fifi) Iskandar.

For many things.
Especially because she leads me, instead of mothering me.
Because she is strong, and she teaches me to be strong.
Because I see that if anyone of us is in trouble, she'll be the first to stand up and fight.
She'll be the first to stand up and fight for God, for Pastors, for the church, for her people.

That's what I call a true fighter, a pillar of the church, a Zone Supervisor.
A Youth of the Year.

She inspires me to be more than who I am.
She inspires me to be unafraid, uncompromising and strong.
She gives me (many) a tight slap when I need to wake up my idea.
She shows me what it means to be a real Christian.

I mean, hello, who can be both the YOUTH OF THE YEAR and TOP 25 YOUTHS UNDER 25 IN SINGAPORE at the SAME TIME?
Kinda says something eh?

Man.
I want to be just like her.

Be jealous, people.
Be very jealous.
Cuz I've got the best leader in the world.

(Disclaimer: After Pastors and Dom of course. Hee hee.)

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Luke 15: 4-5
4 “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he loses one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one which is lost until he finds it? 5 And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing.

Today, I looked at my ninety-nine, but my heart was with the one which is lost.

I don't know how many of you have ever lost something before, something precious to you.
It could be your handphone, or your wallet?
Something that you had to pay a price for.
Maybe you had to save up a full month for that new handphone, the latest model, with 2.0 megapixel camera, 1GB memory stick, in-ear headphones...
That's my phone by the way.
You love it.
You adore it.
Then it goes missing.
You get frantic.
You pray.
You can't think of anything else till you find your phone..that's the only thing that'll set you at ease.

Today, God showed me how He felt when He found that He had only 99 sheep, that 1 was missing.
Do you know what wilderness means?
Wilderness speaks of a barren place, of scorpions, dry land and death.
Yet, without hesitation, He leaves the 99 in the wilderness in search of 1.
That's how much He loves.

That's God's heart.
That's Pastor's heart.
That's Dominic's heart.
That's Fifi's heart.
That's my heart.

Pastors lead 700 member church, and yet they're still asking about you!
That's how much they love you...
I know that that's about how much they love me too, and it means the world to me.

Don't lose fire.
Don't lose your sight.
I remember, you have great visions for God.
You wanted to sing on the worship team.
Keep those dreams alive!

Pastors, Dominic, Fifi and I, we all believe in you.

He's not going to rest, till He finds that one lost sheep. And then there'll be great celebration and rejoicing!

You have a place here.
You have a place in God's heart.
You are so important.

I miss you loads.

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That's for giving me a heart attack with that photo.

Lucky I look cute. HAHA.

GABRIEL LEE SWEE KEAT.

Back in the days when your hair was still short.

Go cut.

That was a lovely entry you dedicated to me.

I didn't know you drink only lukewarm or hot water.

We're different in many more ways.

He's scrawny and I'm fat.

Chubby.

Cute.

Whatever you might call it.

Our fashion senses are worlds apart.

I still don't like the blue shoes much.

He can solve a p5 question.

I can't.

He teaches SOW guitar.

I think I failed mine.

He goes to downtown east more than I do.

And I live 3 minutes away.

But you know what, this is our biggest similarity.

We love God, we love Pastors, we love our leaders, he Garrett and me Dom and Fifi.

Gab is the sweetest best friend one could ever ask for.

I can call him at 1 - 2 plus at night and he'll talk to me till he hears distant snoring.

It's funny how it's always me sleeping.

He can listen to me whine non-stop about the same thing.

Treading around Mt Horeb...

Haha!

If I need to find something online, I know without a doubt I can count of him to help me.

Even if it's the price of an adidas bag.

When we used to cab home together from church (east side la), he'll always send me home first.

Even though he stays in the Paya Lebar area and I stay in Pasir Ris.

And he even remembers my address when I knock out in the cab.

I talk to him about anything and everything.

And though I think he hardly understands what I'm talking about sometimes, he does a real good job at listening.

Yep.

We've been through hell and fire together.

With Gab around, I know that there's someone I can rely on, someone I can depend on.

Thanks bestie.

That's my entry for you. :)

And.................

Here you go!

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You know what.
I miss Pastors.
It feels weird going to church and not seeing Pastors.
It's like going home and not seeing your parents.
Weird.

Oh gosh.
They'll be away for 2 weeks!
Ah!

Anyways.
SMU life is as usual.
Although I feel that I've made major improvementss, I still have a long way to go.
Major improvements like..
1. I'm actually on time for lectures (as opposed to being 15 mins late every time).
2. I actually do AS homework (as opposed to never doing any homework ever).
3. I actually go for more lessons, only skipping 6 this term (as opposed to going for about 3 - 4 classes out of 5 a week).

Ah well.
Maybe next term I'll be early for my lectures, I'll do all my homework, my readings, and go for all my lessons!
Hee hee.
Fat chance.

Highlight of the week:
Last Sunday, Dale and I went shopping with Esmonde.
It was a BLAST.
Esp after I had such a miserable day.
Esmonde looks like a million bucks now man!
Technically, anything he pulls out of his wardrobe, even if he does it with blindfolds, should look stunning.
So you can imagine my look of horror yesterday when I saw him in one of his old condemned-by-Liane outfits.
*faints*

Oh, and yesterday was the inspection for our springcleaning!
Chris, Mich, Cindy, Shu Yi, Sam, Yong Sing and I cleared up the whole recep area, and it's sparkling clean now!
In fact, we were the first and only ministry to have passed inspection on the first round!
Kudos to the team man!

Can't wait for the weekends.
Last week's service was a blast.
41st Day totally nailed it man!
I went in for the adult service, and it was so awesome to start the day praising and worshipping Jesus the way we did!

Just a little bit more.
Eye on the goal.
Blinders on.
No more distractions.
This time, I'm gonna nail it.
Fighter is back.
All recharged.
All ready to go.

Thanks Pastors, I owe it all to you.

loved by Jesus!

Hmm.

Psych test was bad bad bad today.
Bad bad test.
Boo psych.

And I've got a BGS project to complete by Monday.
I hate completing things by Monday.
Ew.

I sound like a kid.

I bought a new surf pencil case and neon coloured hair tye (orange, lime green, pink).
And I was listening to The Moffatts.
Joyce and I concluded that I am stuck in the secondary sch era.
Hey...I love being young man.

People can be so complicated sometimes.
That's why psych's so hard to study.
Haha.
I guess there's gonna be more to come, like Bel said.

Mid terms.
What a monster.

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