YOU have turned my life UPSIDE DOWN and INSIDE OUT. :)

Voila~!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
- Matthew 11:12

I will take it by force.

I have moved.

currently at livejournal.

For some strange reason, I can't put up the link here. So you'll just have to do it manually.

cowsgotoheaven.livejournal

okay?

blogger boo you.

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I say, don't try to read me, my friend, don't try...

Because there's nothing to read, I am who I am, I act like who I am, and I say what I am.

I don't know how else to react to it actually.
Initially I must admit, I was irritated and very mad when I heard about what you must have thought.
But now I find it quite funny.

I don't get hung up about such small things anymore my friend.

Haha.

On to bigger things in life.

Something so big, it has me totally immersed in it, totally engaged in it.
It would mean a totally new thing, a totally BIG thing...accelerating at the speed of light.
A new path, a new route.

Boo!
HAHA SCARED RIGHT.

When big things and exams loom before you, you go a little crazy.
Cuz well, I am human after all, and I do face stress.

Like,
"I have a mouse. Daniel has a cat. We can play catching!"
That, btw, was in response to Shu Yi asking for a mouse for Noel's laptop.

And...
Peck Lian's PARAPAZZI.
Will some kind soul tell her it's paparazzi?

AND BY THE WAY.

Just to let you know,
If you want to matchmake someone, the perfect person to ask is the security guard, according to the pecktheory of marriage.
"So uncle ah, ask you ah, you think our miss parapazzi peck should get married now ah?"

Oh my......the parapazzi-ness of it all.

"Liane....you should go study now....get some rest......."

Oh, the inner voice calls.

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My MRT rides are more exciting than yours.

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Some people can mean the world to you,
But you don't mean anything to them.

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After being a Christian for some time in Heart of God church, many of us would have found our place.
Doing what we do best.
But sometimes, doing all these things makes us a tad too comfortable.
We remain in our comfort zone.
Unwilling to get up and get out.

Sometimes, we do the wrong things so often, that we get a little sick and tired of it.
So we end up in a vicious downward cycle.
Going down and down and down and down...
Till we land with a huge 'thump!'
And we tell ourselves, 'There's no point. Let's just stay here. I'm comfortable here.'

So in doing so, we lost the energy to fight back.
We gave up the spirit that used to be inside us, screaming, 'Get up and do something about it!'
We ignore it often enough, till that spirit gets a little tired of screaming.
And we go a little deaf to it's screaming.

So what happens next?
You're not a bad Christian.
You still go to church every week.
In fact, you still go to church many times a week.
You're involved in some ministries.

But you see that most of your friends have risen up...gone on to do bigger things.
And you feel a little, well, wishing that you were like them too.

Sounds familiar?

Everyone of us has gone through that, some point of our lives.
But the key is not to stay too happy in your comfort zone.
Learn to get up and get out.

If you want to move ahead, you gotta stop ignoring that voice inside of you..start listening to it.
Make a decision to do something about it, and keep to that decision.
Things don't happen immediately, but you just gotta keep on keeping on.
You will get there...
If you want to.

Hope this has ministered to some people. :)

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'Will you?'

After much struggling..

'Okay.'

Here we go again.

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This post is dedicated to one of my favourite people in the world.

Okay Bel, maybe you don't quite count as favourite...HAHA. But you sure count as one of the people I love most.

I don't get to talk to you that often, maybe just a few times a week.

I don't know how it's like to be in Canada, because I've never even been there.

When I was younger, I used to think Canada was near Australia or something.

But I really do try to keep you connected here, to tell you about what's been going on and update you with all the LATEST INFORMATION you can laugh about until your cheeks explode.

I really don't think that you're going to stay in Canada for another year.

I think you're gonna come back to Singapore and study here.

I wish I could say that the Holy Spirit told me that, but I can't.

I'm sure He will update me soon though.

My best friend instincts tell me you're coming back.

So, while you don't wanna get your hopes up, let me just remind you..

He loves those whose faith is like a little child's.

It's okay to have faith like a little child, even if they may get shattered.

Faith pleases God, and hey, you never know what strong faith can do.

It's been said to move mountains and cast them into the sea.

I make a solemn promise to you.

My next fast will be dedicated to Isabel Tan (I can't remember your Chinese name...I know it's Pei something).

And if I'm giving up food for you, you better have the decency to start praying and believing you're gonna come back.

Bring some nice doughnuts along with you too.

Love you. :)

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Don't waste my time.

You may have nothing to do in your life, but I do.

Argh.

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FEE FEE!

Don't like seeing Fifi lying on the hospital bed with a drip attached to her.

I mean, even for myself, I'd probably bite the drip off.

And I'll kill the doctor before he tries to stuff a needle into my wrist and pump liquids into it.

Ouchies.

And an OPERATION.

Good grief.

I'll scream the high heavens down if I ever have to go through an operation.

What a brave leader I have.

Ima saddened.

I mean, even if Fifi doesn't eat veggies and fruits, it doesn't give anything (yeah I'm talking to you, you APPENDICITIS nonsense, you....) to make her fall sick.

TSK TSK.

I'll bite you.

Haha. Oh WELL.

Glad she's okay now. :)

The whole WORLD (the world of D Zone!) visited FEE!

At one point, there was like 30 people squashed into the LAVENDER SUITE at East Shore Hospital.

Valerie Fifi Iskandar.

It's all in the name LAH.

Like me, I'm only an NG. Not ISKANDAR.

HAHAHA KIDDING!

As I was talking to Dom, we agreed that the horrible naughty appendicitis won't kill her, but BOREDOM prob would.

I guess there wasn't much of a BOREDOM problem.

More of an air supply problem.

HAHA.

Going down to visit dear Fifi again later. :)

Cheers man!

MANY MANY PEOPLE MISS YOU AH.

Many. :P

Dear God,

Please protect my leader, Fifi.

Because she has been a very good girl.

Very very good.

She has been a good girl for nearly 3 years, and that's a really long time to be a good girl for.

And especially over the past year, she has been a REAL GOOD GIRL.

(Kill the appendicitis. KILL IT KILL IT!)

AMEN!

As you can see,

we miss you so much,

we're going crazy. HAHA.

Love you, can't wait for you to be back. :)

Loves!

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I'm amused.

In this entry, I'm going to ask you some questions.

Why is it that every single *!#$# time something bad in the world happens, people always go....
'Why would a fair, just, loving and Almighty God allow such a thing to happen?'
Shaking their heads.
Letting out self-righteous sighs.
And then saying, 'There can't be a God.'

Everytime something bad happens to people, like when people go through a bad breakup...
No one's fault.
But God's.
God's fault that you got a jerk of a boyfriend?
Gee.

Why does everyone point to our God? Our Jesus?

Why doesn't anyone blame Buddha or Allah or something?
(Disclaimer: Nothing against Buddha or Allah, just try to see my point.)

And you know the funniest thing is, these people don't even believe in God.

Let me translate to how I see it. "Oh, I don't believe in God. But I know He's responsible for all the horrible things that happen in my life." Is the same as saying, "Oh, I don't think dogs are real. But I'm pretty sure a dog peed on my carpet." Please tell me how that remotely makes any sense.

God's just something convenient for them to point at, to push the blame to when no one else is around to be the scapegoat.

He was already our scapegoat 2000 years ago.

Sigh.
Gets a little irritating sometimes, don't you think?

If we expect a fair God, the least we could do is be fair to Him.

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God, I need to pour out to You the things which weigh heavily on my mind.

Pastors.
God, let PGSM be a success.
Please protect and bless this couple who has given nothing short of their best and their all to You.
Even their hearts behind wanting to set up a private university is so amazing.
To provide youths with a better alternative.
To impact more lives through education.

Where you there when Pastor How was sharing about how youths are often despised and shamed?
It was during last Sunday's adult service.
My heart just broke.
Honestly, any man at the age of 30 (plus) wouldn't give two hoots about how youths are despised. Why should he care?
Pastors do. They love. They care.

The hearts of this generation will turn towards the youths.

God, I pray for a new premise.
We are growing at an exponential rate, and we really need a new place.
A new place, bigger and better, convenient for all the youths to get to, still in the heart of town, but affordable.
Much blood and sweat was poured into this place.
Let us begin to pour more into our future premise, I know You already have one ready.
I believe in You.

For I know the thoughts I think towards you, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Dominic.
God, I pray that you protect Dominic while he's away in Taiwan.
I think he's just so amazing.
At the age of 20, he's leading two zones, more than 100 people in total.
He's serving in the army, serving on worship team, serving God.
I know Dom will be safe in the palm of Your hands.

Fifi.
God, I pray for Fifi.
She's on staff, she leads 3 CGs of 60 - 70 youths, plays on worship team and is still studying at NTU.
I pray that D2 will not be a burden to her, but we will begin to rise up once more.
I pray for more leaders to share the burden with her.

D2.
Lord, I pray for D2.
That we will not be a burden to our leaders, and we will learn to turn our hearts towards You.
I pray that we will carry our Pastors' and leaders' hearts.
Noel. Soo Yee. Shu Yi. Ernest. Jimmy. Justin. Liane. Daniel. Qi Qi. Jerome. Lydia. Cheryl. Natascha. Luxian.
I pray for all of us, that we will truly be people after Your own heart.

Me.
God, I pray that I begin to learn how to lighten my Pastors' and leaders' loads.
That I grow into a leader whom they can trust, rely and depend on.
I pray that I learn how to manage my time, so I can do all things.
People. Staff. Work. Studies.
Routines. Momentum. Acceleration.
I will be Your movement.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Thank You.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen.

So, what are the things which weigh heavily on my heart?
These are the things.
Pastors.
Dom.
Fifi.
D2.
Personal growth.

Let's go. :)

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Do you think it's possible for someone to,

Lead a Zone of 80 - 100 people i.e. Zone Leader
Play in two worship teams
Lead the entire Youth Staff that runs the church i.e. Chief of Staff
and get straight Bs in school?

Just the thought of it makes me feel like hyperventilating.

But this is what Garrett does everyday.

Times like these.......you know God is real.

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